granto-what??

Forget the grantourismo. I what the BV500. 96mph OMFG!

Andy + BV500 = :)

That is what I want.

http://www.vespamarietta.com

The Grantourismo can go 74 mph. That is hauling ass for a moped, and I want to be the ass that it is hauling. One of these days you will soooo see me on 285 in the fast lane on a moped blowing the doors off of people. I don't care if I could die. I would die with a huge grin on my face.

on the web...

You know, some people are so bad off in debt, that they have created a website to say, "Hey, I'm so-and-so and I suck with money. I suck so bad that I'm in terribly debt and I'm turning to your kindness to send me your money so I can get out of debt, and all you get in return is the feeling of doing a good deed, and my endless thanks." ...and you think to yourself, "who would ever send these losers money?" but then you also think, "Damn. Someone beat me to it."

April Eve

BTW Happy April Fool's Day Eve

... and if any of you commie suns-a-biches try anything tommorow so help me God I will hire the scariest clown in the world to stand outside your house at night and stratch on your bedroom window... ... ... Scratch... scratch.

You just think about that.

The problem with cheating.

Dieting and cheating just don't mix, and I should know. See here is the problem. If I don't diet and just eat whatever I want, my body is cool with that. It understands that. I eat what I eat and it does what it does and we get along at around the same weight. (Un)fortunaltey, the result is not the same when I diet. When I diet my body is a little confused for the first few days. It doesn't really know what is going on so it kinda just puts evertyhting on hold untill it can get a good read of the situation. If I stick to my diet and don't cheat, then after a few days my body say, "Ok, Andy is on a diet. Let's go into diet mode! WOOHOO!" and I lose a whole bunch of weight really fast. If I do cheat on my diet then my body just gets more confused and says, "I have no idea what is going on!? I better take everything coming in and store it right away incase this is some kind of emergency and I don't know when I'm going to eat again." So basicaly, If I start a diet and then cheat shortly there after, every calorie turns straight into fat and just sits there, making me weigh more than when I started the diet. Kinda depressing, huh?

So now I'm starting my diet again for the billionth time. The icing on the cake today was when someone I hadn't seen for a few months saw me and said, "Hey! You've gained weight. Did you get married?" and when I made it appear as though I was slightly offended she try to fix it by saying how it looked good on me and how my face was more full and....well...I just had tpcut her off after that. So now I have a banana infront of me and my usual 1 gallon jug of distilled water in the chair behind me. The apple, I've already just eaten. Surprisingly, it was good. I don't normally like red apples. I'm more of a Granny Smith apple kinda guy. Tonight, I'm supposed to go to an Irish pub on the square to meet Sijo and since its one of Barry's favorite places to go, and believe me when I say Barry is not the person you want around you when your trying to go on a diet of any kind because the first thing he will do (unintentionaly ofcourse) is try to pressure you into eating or drinking whatever it is you are trying to avoid...over and over again because he keeps forgeting that your on a diet. He already wants me to try some beer that is served there called "Hobgoblin. " I won't be drinking Hobgoblin. Besides, it probably tastes more like "butt goblin." He has a unique taste for things.

Anyway, let me eat this banana so I'm not hungry later..ha! ya right. I'm going to be starving later, but as long as I can continue to grasp the difference between hunger and cravings, I should be ok. If your hungry, any substance that is healthy will satisfy the hunger. If you have cravings, then that is due to something leaving your body that probably shouldn't have been there in the forst place and in your body's attempt to keep balanace, it is saying it needs more of whatever it is that is leaving the body. That's how addiction works wether its food cravings or drug cravings. Thats why its so hard to quit. The cravings go around your rational thinking, straight to your subconcieus. You could be standing there, saying you don't want that donut. You don't need that donut. That donut is no good for you, and that it will only make you fat if you eat it. Then you pick up the donut and eat it. While even chewing it, you could be telling yourself that you don't need it and shouldn't be eating it, but you do. Afterwards, you understand that you did wrong and have a new strength to say no next time. Well that new strength is there because you just ate the donut, or chocolate, or candy, or sandwhich or whatever it may be and now that craving is gone so your rational thinking is back in control. That's why cravings win. Instinct will win over rational thought and cravings disguise themselves as instinct. It takes will power. It take support from friends and family. Most importantly, it takes avoiding even being near or having access to the things you are dieting from. If they are within reach or moderately close, then when no one is around and its just you and "the shakes" you can and you will break.

That's the problem with cheating.

Who reads this anyway?

If its more than 2, I'd be surprised. So ok then. For all those people out there that will never read this blog anyway...

I live in Kennesaw Ga, with a roommate that is annoying but trustworthy. I work for a company that I don't like but pays enough for me to not leave. I currently owe more than I make, and I'm over weight.

Now. I plan on staying in kennesaw with the roommate but I'm trying to find ways to make his annoying habits profitable to me. The job...well its a job. For the weight, I am going to finally start my diet (that I have been "starting" for a year now) and the the extra weight is going to be WTF PWNED!!!1

As for the debt, I have a plan. Its a lose plan but its a plan. It will take a few years but after that, I will be debt free again and able to have a life! Yay me.

btw today was the date that coca cola was invented. Check my myspace page, too.
Andy

Solar Eclipse

There was a Solar Eclipse today. Lasted over 4 minutes There won't a solar eclipse over America until 2017.
Wanna see it?
http://www.nasa.gov/eclipse

Enjoy.

This weekend

Well, I'm back home... for now. This weekend my roomate got a new car. Some 2006 VW Batmobile. I Met some new people on Sunday for rpg'ing and we played an rpg called Rifts. If you know it you'll understand. If you don't know it, don't worry. Just know I made a full conversion combat cyborg and he is a badass. Now that I'm back home, I'm feeling a little better. Not as many dark thoughts filling my head. Also, John ran out of gas on 285 and called me at 9:40 pm tonight. I drove out there with some gas and followed him back home.

Closing shop

Well, I worked late tonight and got a lot done. I'll be wrapping it all up tomorrow and leaving laGrange for the last time. I'll miss the solitude of this hotel room.

back

its 1:20am I'm back from work. I did some copying until I got tired. Better get some sleep before tomorrow.

Bad Dream

I had a dream about Bosnia. OK let me back up. I went to sleep around 6pm so I could wake up around midnight to go into work for a bit, but I started dreaming about Bosnia and it got me really on edge, then I got a phone call that startled me awake and after the call I was too on edge to fall back asleep because everytime I closed my eyes, I could see my old room in Bosnia and started having all kinds of flash backs. Its 9:49pm and I'm wide awake now. This hasn't happened to me in 5 years since I got back. I guess I'm on my way back to work now only earlier than intended. Hopefully the work will take my mind off Bosnia and the nervousness will go away.

a dark desk

I'm sitting here. My back to the the rest of the hotel room. A dimly lit corner with the shadow of the rest of the room leaning towards me. Every room is the same so even though I have been in different rooms here for the past month, it still feels older, comfortable, lonely. Nothing here but a TV that never has anything good on its 60 somthing channels and a pool that is always empty. I enjoyed the empty pool for the first few weeks. Enjoyed the solitude. The joy faded though. Now I just sit in my room. The only thing down here of any late night intrest is a Wal-Mart. I've walked it a few times when I needed something but ... well you can only do that so many times before that loss its flavor, also.
I brought my computer this time. I needed to get out somehow. The network at the hospital is restricted so you can't search anything of any interest. I went through some old pictures and found this one. I miss being that person. I try and try and try to be like that person again and again but every time I try and fail, then it just gets worse. This is my last week down here in Lagrange. On Friday I have to pack everything the company ownes and just leave. Thats kinda sad, almost. Its not me that has to go, its the company, but that includes me, and I am the face of the company for them. Its bittersweet I guess. They like me, but I have to go.

Its raining. Hard, heavy rain. The ladies talked about this summer. They said it will probably be a hot one. I said we will probably see lots of floods. Heh, floods and then it starts raining today. Good timing.

Weekend Gaming.

I spent this weekend in Tifton gaming with my bro and Justin. It was a Starcraft weekend. Justin didn't get to game as much as I had hoped but we still had fun. Now I have to pack everything up and start my long drive north to LaGrange.

Sunday

This will be my last week in LaGrange. On Friday, at noon, I will begin packing everything up and loading it in my car. I have been told to take everything including the paperclips. In a small way, i'll miss the people I have met, but I have met many people with my job that I knew I would only know for a few weeks then probably never see again. Thats all fine with me. I'm used to it by now. Though, it would have been nice if Amanda and I had actually gone out for dinner once or even roller skating with is one of her favorite things to do.

Amanda on left. Jann on right.

NIN Concert

My friends and I went to the NIN concert in Greenville, SC last friday. It was definately worth the trip. The concert was great! Before the show, I made some friends in the parking area by McGyver'ing a Bottle opener out of a Lighter.

Update

I haven't blogged much because I have been down in Lagrange for my company and the computer network there won't allow access to this site, hence no up to the minute updates. I got a new cell phone...good thing. The guy at the cell phone store deleted my etire address book before I could get of the numbers off the old phone...bad thing. Still bouncing on and off my diet. hopefully the time away from home will keep me more focused on my diet goals. Oh well. would sit and keep typing but I have an hour and half drive ahead of me. Oh yeah. NIN concert is this week too...woot.