Lets try this again.

Ok, for anyone following, I have been on-again, off-again with my diet, and now I am going to try to get back on it. I think the key to staying on it will be juicing but I won't be juicing yet. Hopefully I can hold out for a week or so before I start juicing.

This weekend was pretty fun. I watched the extended version of the LOTR trilogy... wow thats an all day (and night) event. I wasn't strong enough for the bonus material. I watched about an hour and a half of it before I just had to stop it and walk away. Half way through the trilogy, I had to do SOMETHING active so I walked up Kennesaw Mountain then walked back down, hopped in my car, got back, took a shower and continued with the movie.

I was flipping through the channels (as usual when I watch TV which is why I don't watch much TV) and stopped for a minute on QVC. They were selling remote control planes. I was watching with Joe and now Joe is captivated by these reasonably priced RC planes/helicopters and spent to next hour or so researching them online.

I try to get with my friends and watch movies from time to time. Since its a bunch of guys, and I end up picking the movie due to no input from anyone else, I pick certain movies that I consider a staple of "Manly" movies. Movies that I feel every man must watch with friends at least once after the age of 21. Movies like "The Godfather" trilogy and "Scarface" I also recommend "Dune" (both versions). Though it isn't as manly, it still has certain values that must be taught. My next pick for movie night is "Ronan." It has one of the best car chases ever and Robert Deniro to boot.

I say these are movies that must be watched by men and among guy friends because they help to open up a part of yourself that needs to be opened atleast once or twice. Most of these movies are pure testosterone and can not be fully appreciated or even understood at a younger age and on some levels when veiwed alone. You must be a man, you must have had the time to expeirience the pain and hardships of life and love and and aggression. These movies put that gun in your hand. These movies put you behind the steering wheel of that high speed chase. These movies let you flaunt an arrogance of MAN that can only be appreciated by you and your friends as you all cheer and laugh and seek a just revenge to years of betrayal by a newly discovered enemy that was until just recently called "friend". You get to live out those great moments and be everything that a stereotypical man should be and is defined to be... and then, shortly after the credits roll, you get up, take a deep breath, and go back to your life. You turn back into who you were before the movie started only now with a little box of treasure, tucked away in the back of your mind that you sneak away and peak into every now and then in a secret opportunity to remember that beyond the politcal correctness, and the public view, beyond the family and wife and kids, beyond the day to day grind of a sluggishly boring job that you hate, beyond the rush hour traffic, and the news and the fear of actually doing ANYTHING that may make people look unkindly upon you, even if you never live out a single fantasy that is your own, you get to live out something that almost shouldn't even exist anymore yet is so fundamentaly required... and you didn't even have to offend anyone to do it...unless your wife found out that you were going to leave her out of movie night, but then again, just think of what Scarface would do if his wife wanted in on movie night with the guys. Just think it though. Don't say it. Don't mention it. Don't even suggest it. Don't even hint at it. Just think it, hold back a smile and do what you gotta do. Some would say that these movies are horrible, and they represent everything that a man shouldn't be, but that is the point. That is why they must be viewed. Its like learning from others mistakes. Going out in a blaze of glory, choosing a massive gunfight that you know you can't win over a slow drawn out death, or dieing as an old man, all alone having looked back and hated what he had become. Its fundamental. It shows us what we could become so that we don't have to be that way... but its still fun to imagine... and you get the the one liners.